I dont wanna be

http://www.sing365.com/music/Lyric.nsf/I-Don't-Wanna-Be-lyrics-Gavin-DeGraw/47D1C04781C1988F48256D7B0026054B


I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been tryin to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by identity crisis everywhere I turn
am I the only one to notice
I can't be the only one who's learned

I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me

Can I have everyone's attention please
if you're not like this and that
You're gonna have to leave

I came from the mountains
the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay to stone
and now I'm telling everybody


I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I've peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE...
I DONT WANNA BE....
I DONT WANNA BE...

It occurs to me is watching TV series is actually is not that harmful

OK, let’s put it this way, I spent my last almost 48 hours watching this so “penting” TV series DVD…to me 48 hours can means long quality talk with mom and dad (duh!) and friends, very long cuddling with Boyfriend which can lead into something more J or 3 novel (well 1 and half if the author is Dan brown)..
So, this TV Series is WORTH TO WATCHED…promise!! Anyone I know one of the fans of “One Tree Hill” Series… well, I’m a big fan!
The story is about a place call one-tree hill where everyone there is connected-by blood or simply “history”- main characters of the stories are Lucas (unwanted son) and Nathan (THE son) and their plot to get through their teen life. The very thing is this movie shows us that in life, sometimes adults are really learning more when they are interacting with young people…
What I Love most is…this movie is started and ended with a quote and how that quote reflects in daily life and how we take fruit from any good, bad, happy and bitter part of life...

Highly recommended by manda and pandu hehehe

go holiday!

SIAL!! dari pagi di kepala gue udah terngiang ngiang lagu soundtrack nya chicken little..
man...let's shake some bootie!! hehehe

tema hari ini "lonely planet"
apakah arti lonely planet? yah anda salah bukan arti secara literal, namun saya mengartikannya lebih kepada...sebuah judul buku travelling yang membuat saya ingin sekali berjalan jalan hehehe...
sampe wedding gue, which is insyaAllah akan diadakan Maret 2007, ada beberapa spot waktu yang menurut gue pas benerr untuk liburan;
1. ulang taun gue.. 6 Nov ini and for this special day i have taken 2 days off on 3rd and 6th so, i have 4 straight days free
2. New Year...wanna go somewhere quite and nice from 29 to 1st -pas bener weekend... tapi gue maunya pergi gak sama pandu, yaah itung itng bachelorette weekend laah, but it's almost impossible coz some of my friends are married already...
3. My honey moon of course....pandu and gue lagi moral dilema antara "sopan" gak pake uang yang agak banyak untuk honeymoon..ehiney...my choices are: Hongkong, keliling jawa or to Japan...
really wanna go to HK though..get lost together in a new place...i wanna see what will happened heheheh

so anyone has idea where to go?

confession #1

I have a huge regret in my life...
this is purely on me and because of me.

I just realised that about at the same day 2 years ago, umm less than 700 days ago, I was standing on a stage where I felt that i can really choose what to do with my life.

Here now, on my working desk I sit still and start thinking, may be I've chosen the wrong choice, taken the wrong way...or at least there is some way better than, now...

Current self description: 23, female, working in Jakarta as an employee of one of the biggest securities companies in Indonesia, engaged to a wonderful man, have common credit card debt, have a stable saving, earn some what 7 digits monthly etc etc etc.

Happy? This one is hard to be described. I am happy with everything arround me now, but somehow I knos that other happiness waiting for me outside if i took other way...

less than 700 days ago...i thought that i will be someone bigger, someone worth to be recognized, someone who can say proudly what she is doing and etc etc...

but then, i cannot say that I am unhappy...it's just i feel that i'm prepared for something bigger, better...

something that has a moral in it..something heavy with social messages, something meaningful for a lot of people...

guess I still have another 700 days to figure it out and do something about that rite.. or maybe more than 700 days...-if God permits-

I promise not to look back and do something that i will regret...700 days after to day..I will be happy with my self description...

insya Allah...